Billy Elliot, or the life that could have been..

20-05-08

On a happier note, (for a change) I just watched Billy Elliot, the movie about the british country boy who wanted to be a ballet dancer. I must say I’m seriously thinking of filing a formal complaint against hallmark Channel, they play the best movies so late at night, I can’t stop watching but I end up in bed at 1 and 2 am, which means less sleeping hours for me…and I need my sleep!!!

Well, the point is that this movie, like not so many others, leaves you thinking on what it was that you left behind in your childhood, that passion that could have made you a genius. In my case, I don’t think it was ballet. I wasn’t there long enough, but I still have the occasional dream of being a Prima Ballerina, and I still sight (profoundly and profusely) when I see someone dancing ballet or even at the mere sight of ballet shoes.

I know it wasn’t painting, ‘cause I suck at it. And lets just keep it short by saying that I suck at any handcrafting technique. I can’t sing that well, even if I pretend otherwise in the shower. Writing, however, I do think im pretty good at. And maybe none of my work will make it to the pullitzer (yet), but I can still enjoy the pleasure I derive from words: The ones I read and the ones I write.

Billy’s audition at the Royal Ballet had me wondering about my own audition, maybe with the French Embassy or with the British Commonwhealth office…I already booked the dates for my tests, the DELF and the TOEFL. I’ve spent quite a chunk of my money in it, but im following my dream. My dream, that passion that burns within me and that keeps the fire inside of me alive is to travel the world, to share my ideas with the world’s greatest minds, to be a part of that elite called “leaders”, “geniuses”, those who are destined to be a part of history. It might sound ambicious or even far fetched, but that’s what it is. And even though I could start going insaine now, trying to figure out every possible alternative to my ten year plan, Right now im taking it one step at a time. All I have in my head right now is the DELF (apart from the gazillion things at work of course). After im done with it I’ll start worrying about the next thing.

I might have an answer regarding france, maybe next week. All I can do right now is pray, cross my fingers and wait, strongly believing that God in his infinite wisdom and mercy will only give me that which is the best for me, and that when he takes something away (or out of your way) is because something better is in storage for you.